#KIM DOKJA you're so specific in so many other ways why is THIS one the one you fail me on

[hehearse]

i see we're sending song suggestions again! i sent a few orv songs a while back, but it was before you'd finished the novel (which i had not realized at the time), so i want to try my hand at it again (plus with some sctir songs since you're into that now). there's gonna be a lot so please don't feel pressured to listen to them all at once (or at all!)

for orv:

everything in the dear hunter's all is as all should be album, but specifically the right wrong for yjh & all is as all should be (the song) for either sp or 51% kdj

reset me & take this lonely heart by nothing but thieves (yjh, arguably also kdj for the latter)

stories by lilli furfaro (The Themes)

icarus & apollo by ripto (yoohankim...)

mephisto by queen bee (this one goes SO hard. yjh)

for sctir:

always gold by radical face (this is The han brothers song to me. i love doomed siblings.)

against the kitchen floor by will wood (this one is primarily focused on the relationship yoohyun & hyunjae have with yoojin, and how that relates to their relationship with their humanity. the first verse/chorus is yoohyun, the second is hyunjae, and the rest of the song is yoojin. This one makes me so ill you have no idea)

honestly i'm still holding back but i don't just want to list out my entire playlists ... i hope you enjoy these ones!

HAPPENS TO THE BEST OF US NO WORRIES!! apparently i blended in well. :D

oh that's gonna be long. breaking it apart for structure purposes and also a read more cause feels appropriate FDSFCVS

-> orv

the right wrong by the dear hunter...

yeah checks out. yjh, always watched by kdj in one way or another. always remembering all his mistakes, letting them cling onto him as he goes through one regression after another. and then going back again and again, attempting to get rid of people who are yet to wrong him. yes yes... /crumbles/

all is as it should be. that's yjh. that's plotter. to me. gah.

is there even a need to elaborate. the cycle of regression, his self moving further and further from the patient zero if you will. the crash of stepping back into the first moments of that loop. watching his own self afterwards, wading through the 3rd turn. dooming himself in the 999th turn. something something biting his own tail and i am weak to it.

Nothing But Thieves - Take This Lonely Heart

this one is also. self explanatory isn't it. the story ended but yjh did not. what else is there to do. his purpose gone, his constellation gone. star-shaped hole in his chest aching, but the world is no longer the one that could fill it. there is comfort in the end of the world, you know what to do at any moment of your life, don't you? prevent it. save the world. but once you're done. what then huh. ehe. <- on the verge of death

Nothing But Thieves - Reset me

i hear you but consider this: yoohankim. first kdj - carrying the end in his pocket (literal) - the edited version of ways of survival, if you will. changing their luck - also literal. you know the drill then yjh - carrying so many ends (pardon the implications). carrying the pocket watch too - why not. carrying his sponsorship that leads him to his end etc etc then hsy of course - carrying wos for years and years, bringing forth the end of the world, the usual ^^ and they all attempt to look after each other, don't they? carrying each other's names and faces to the end of universe and back, bringing each other to life (or back to life). self explanatory i think.

lilli furfaro - stories - that one you are correct. the themes. orv in general. ehe. (<- sobbing)

ripto - icarus & apollo well.

something something. han sooyoung paving the way for yoo joonghyuk. and kim dokja leading him astray (to the epilogue). and him going back still. bangs my head against the wall. yoohankim....

queen bee - mephisto

consider this: yjh talking to kdj. reciting his own words at times. ehe... <- shaking but absolutely. yoo joonghyuk risking his life by making that regression his final one (liar). while kim dokja becomes something else in front of his eyes . ^^ almost leaving his turn for the 1863rd. salvation in form of betrayal. isn't that a love on shape of a lie? very kdj truly. ^^

-> sctir

ALWAYS GOLD ABSOLUTELY i think it cropped up before and you are very correct. that's them, the doomed siblings of all time.

will wood - against the kitchen floor

yeah there is nothing to add. you are correct. yoohyun first, hyunje second, yoojin in the end. and hyh and shj both changed due to love. i had a whole essay somewhere on them attempting to humanize their love for yoojin, but dooming him by doing that. and yet still being loved back. head in hands. and ogh yoojin as quicksand? yeah checks out. with all the s classes drowning in his love mhm. sounds about right. (and of course the overwhelming guilt for existing in others' lives.)

[lizhly-writes]

nanowrimo: day 8&9

November 9th, 2020: 8810/50000

Honestly I have been both very tired and lacking inspiration.  Which has led me to writing random scenes of other projects and starting other projects, because it’s a lot easier to write 1k of random scenes instead of sitting down and plotting out a proper trajectory for my actual project.  It’s hard!  I ran into a confusing scene in canon in which the mc got rid of some zombies, but I can’t tell if this was because he was being surrounded by zombies or if it was because he calmly walked toward some nearby zombies like a dumbass or how he even got rid of them to begin with.  I mean look at this.

Right now, I needed to remain calm. There were still a few usable methods, but the important thing was to handle matters in front of me. 

I controlled my breathing and walked to the demonic people. 

 “Kuweeok?” 

 Fortunately, it wasn’t difficult to make the fall down the bridge using inertia. Kyaaaack – kwajijik!

 I reduced the numbers by making them fall steadily. The dokkaebi’s stopwatch floating in the air was blinking.

alright, kim dokja.  you're making demonic people fall.  how are you doing that.  you can't just say inertia.  does the sheer gravity of your presence push demonic people off bridges?

i actually need to know, because if he was surrounded by zombies in canon, then he’ll be surrounded by zombies in my fanfic, and that affects what i have to write, urgh.  I’m going to need to see what he did in the webtoon. I have to research by reading a webtoon.  Now, I like webtoons, but do you know how much joy I lose out on by having to do it for research?

Excerpt:

The sponsor selection finishes up, and then Kim Dokja calls everyone over for a hello, nice to meet you, my name is so-and-so, please take care of me during the apocalypse.  Kim Namwoon collects glares and wary looks and half-remembered names, and none of it is interesting at all.  

Ha, except for that one guy who thinks he’s such bigshot and tried ordering around hyung.  For that guy, Kim Namwoon makes sure to grin extra-wide, showing off all his teeth, and that’s enough to scare the shit out of this loudmouthed bastard.  Man, it’s so much easier to intimidate people when everyone knows you were the first person out of them all to be okay with murder.